You are where you are today because of the decisions you have made, whether good or bad.
Whatever you thought to do, is what you chose to do, is the result of where you are at this very moment.
Your choices, your decisions are real, so are your outcomes.
Proverbs 23:7 (KJV) – for as he thinketh in his heart, so is he: Eat and drink, saith he to thee; but his heart is not with thee.